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If You Love
Astrology: An Astrologer on Being
by Moses Siregar III
I don't know about you, but I think what I long to do more than anything
is touch someone else in a transcendent way, to be able to give something
of myself that makes someone else's life infinitely richer. A director
writes a movie that makes me feel something deeply beautiful. A musician
performs a song that helps me reach a knowing that this great, big
dreamlike world we're living in is somehow really all right.
Maybe some day, I pour all of my being into understanding another person's
life and talk to them about where the Earth and planets and Sun and Moon
were when they joined in this crazy experience of humanity and maybe that
person's life becomes something so much greater, even if just for a few
moments, because of me being there and saying whatever it is that I can
say. If that could happen, has happened, or will happen, then I come down
to my knees and thank the God of this Universe for giving me that moment
of opportunity. And if it happens at 2:00 on a Wednesday afternoon while
I'm going about doing what I do on most work days and forgetting that it
might really, really mean something, then that's okay too. I just really
want to be that guy.
And if you ever thought about talking to someone about astrology--whether
it's a friend or a stranger or a client or even just yourself--and being
that person, sitting on that side of the conversation, I hope you do it. I
hope you find the ability to say to yourself, "I'm just gonna do this, and
I'm going to say what comes to me to say, and then I'm going to listen to
what the other person says, and then we'll see what happens."
Because when you find the courage to be that person, risking being wrong
and risking looking like a fool, amazing things can transpire and you
might feel a deep sense of peace and well being in knowing that you have
touched a person gently on a level that can only be called their soul, and
met them there. And then when you part ways, and the person goes on with
his or her life and is thinking about their existence in a new light, you
can feel that blessed feeling of satisfaction in knowing that you opened
yourself to speak the words of some kind of angels and were good enough to
say them.
This is why I love my "work." This is why I hope that even if I
didn't have to work, I would still do it often. Despite the pain and
sorrow of life, it's this that gives me as much as life has ever given me.
I don't think I'm nearly as thankful as I could be for that. And in my
better moments, I genuinely hope that everyone else can feel at least this
good as often as possible.
If there's anything that's made me this lucky, or at least been an
accomplice to that good fortune, it's that I've been given the ability to
want it. To get lost and to try to find my way back home. To need to find
some kind of even temporary antidote to suffering and being adrift at sea.
To cry out for a way to make this life so much better for the sake of all
of us lost souls. To have an understanding that by giving we receive, and
that by giving we gain more ability to give even more. I crave this
passion.
If there's any value in feeling insatiable, for me, this is where it lies.
I hope that as long as I live, this passion will never leave my bones;
that I will never tire of desiring to find the bliss that is inside of me
and to leak and pour it out in all directions, for all of creation.
For me, this is the greatness of astrology. Not only is its unfathomable
reality a transcendent thing to behold, but it's a language of the heart
that speaks so intimately to us, and we can speak that language together.
Believe it or not, I actually get paid to do that. How can I possibly
complain?
So not everyone understands it. So most people think it's a pathetic lie.
How can I be discouraged by that? How can I make excuses because of that?
If I speak about astrology from my soul, whoever is willing to hear that
cannot fail to listen. If I search for the truth and speak the truth with
all of my humanness and some humility, there is no way that I cannot
succeed in relaying this message. And since I am inborn with the ability
and inclination to do this, it would be a personal sin not to. I am what I
am.
Maybe this is what you are too. Maybe, whether you are the humblest
student or the most ambitious teacher, you are, an astrologer.
And as I say this, the voice of critics well up in my head. You are not
any profession, they say. You are not this, not that. Deep down, they are
right. But right here and right now, they are not. I am what I am. And I
cannot separate myself from the experience before me. If I did, I wouldn't
get to experience this fullness for what it uniquely is. I am so glad to
feel this.
Now you know more about who I am. And I would smile if reading this made
you know something more about who you are. I don't believe we're really
separate, after all. What do you feel? What truth burns brightly in your
beautiful soul? Please let these words be a fan to that fire and flame.
When burning brightest, it seems to be very calm and still after all. I
think we can have peace through passion. Please do me a favor, and believe
in this way. For this, for you, I pray. I hope you'll join me. Let's do it
together.
©
Copyright Moses Siregar III 2007
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