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If You Love
Astrology: An Astrologer on Being
by Moses Siregar III
I don't know about you, but I think what I long
to do more than anything is touch someone else in a transcendent way, to be
able to give something of myself that makes someone else's life infinitely
richer. A director writes a movie that makes me feel something deeply
beautiful. A musician performs a song that helps me reach a knowing that
this great, big dreamlike world we're living in is somehow really all right.
Maybe some day, I pour all of my being into understanding another person's
life and talk to them about where the Earth and planets and Sun and Moon
were when they joined in this crazy experience of humanity and maybe that
person's life becomes something so much greater, even if just for a few
moments, because of me being there and saying whatever it is that I can say.
If that could happen, has happened, or will happen, then I come down to my
knees and thank the God of this Universe for giving me that moment of
opportunity. And if it happens at 2:00 on a Wednesday afternoon while I'm
going about doing what I do on most work days and forgetting that it might
really, really mean something, then that's okay too. I just really want to
be that guy.
And if you ever thought about talking to someone about astrology--whether
it's a friend or a stranger or a client or even just yourself--and being
that person, sitting on that side of the conversation, I hope you do it. I
hope you find the ability to say to yourself, "I'm just gonna do this, and
I'm going to say what comes to me to say, and then I'm going to listen to
what the other person says, and then we'll see what happens."
Because when you find the courage to be that person, risking being wrong and
risking looking like a fool, amazing things can transpire and you might feel
a deep sense of peace and well being in knowing that you have touched a
person gently on a level that can only be called their soul, and met them
there. And then when you part ways, and the person goes on with his or her
life and is thinking about their existence in a new light, you can feel that
blessed feeling of satisfaction in knowing that you opened yourself to speak
the words of some kind of angels and were good enough to say them.
This is why I love my "work." This is why I hope that even if I
didn't have to work, I would still do it often. Despite the pain and sorrow
of life, it's this that gives me as much as life has ever given me. I don't
think I'm nearly as thankful as I could be for that. And in my better
moments, I genuinely hope that everyone else can feel at least this good as
often as possible.
If there's anything that's made me this lucky, or at least been an
accomplice to that good fortune, it's that I've been given the ability to
want it. To get lost and to try to find my way back home. To need to find
some kind of even temporary antidote to suffering and being adrift at sea.
To cry out for a way to make this life so much better for the sake of all of
us lost souls. To have an understanding that by giving we receive, and that
by giving we gain more ability to give even more. I crave this passion.
If there's any value in feeling insatiable, for me, this is where it lies. I
hope that as long as I live, this passion will never leave my bones; that I
will never tire of desiring to find the bliss that is inside of me and to
leak and pour it out in all directions, for all of creation.
For me, this is the greatness of astrology. Not only is its unfathomable
reality a transcendent thing to behold, but it's a language of the heart
that speaks so intimately to us, and we can speak that language together.
Believe it or not, I actually get paid to do that. How can I possibly
complain?
So not everyone understands it. So most people think it's a pathetic lie.
How can I be discouraged by that? How can I make excuses because of that? If
I speak about astrology from my soul, whoever is willing to hear that cannot
fail to listen. If I search for the truth and speak the truth with all of my
humanness and some humility, there is no way that I cannot succeed in
relaying this message. And since I am inborn with the ability and
inclination to do this, it would be a personal sin not to. I am what I am.
Maybe this is what you are too. Maybe, whether you are the humblest student
or the most ambitious teacher, you are, an astrologer.
And as I say this, the voice of critics well up in my head. You are not any
profession, they say. You are not this, not that. Deep down, they are right.
But right here and right now, they are not. I am what I am. And I cannot
separate myself from the experience before me. If I did, I wouldn't get to
experience this fullness for what it uniquely is. I am so glad to feel this.
Now you know more about who I am. And I would smile if reading this made you
know something more about who you are. I don't believe we're really
separate, after all. What do you feel? What truth burns brightly in your
beautiful soul? Please let these words be a fan to that fire and flame. When
burning brightest, it seems to be very calm and still after all. I think we
can have peace through passion. Please do me a favor, and believe in this
way. For this, for you, I pray. I hope you'll join me. Let's do it together.
© Copyright Moses Siregar III
2007
Please visit Moses at his site
ASTROLOGY FOR THE SOUL
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